Social Life

We place ourselves at others whims
doing whatever it takes to fit in.
dare stand your ground, or say it too loud
suddenly you have become disavowed.

when those who were close seem not to care:
you're no longer important, you're no longer there.
when did honesty become a bad fit?
is my popularity counted by the number of invites I get?

do i permit my ego to take a blow,
by those i barely know,
if an invitation to their party never shows?

do i sell myself out for social obligations
simply to be part of some random celebration?

can i hold my head high for failing to waiver
even if now i seem out of favor?

or am i too quick to judge those i miss?
though their actions betrayed me like Judas' kiss.